Thursday, November 6, 2008

Here's What Happened in October

While living in "la petite chambre" as my French colleagues referred to it, I wrote a little bit on Microsoft Word, hoping to post, but never did. Until now. Here are my candid thoughts from my first full month in France.

9/26 – 9/27/08 – Vendredi et Samedi

After two long days at our assistant program orientation in Autrans, a mountain village near Grenoble, I hopped a train to Lyon. From there, a woman from the school and her husband picked me and my nine month’s of luggage up from busy Part-Dieu station. We drove through downtown Lyon on a Friday night listening to Rihanna’s “Disturbia” on the radio. I saw cafes, monuments lit by blue light, and restaurants half wanting to remain there in civilization. While we drove, the woman and her husband did their best to speak to me in English, but as tired and shaky as I was, I still wanted to speak French.

Every time I spoke, I realized how much I needed to learn. We eventually arrived to Chasse-sur-Rhone in the dark driving by the train station and the school in which I’ll teach. I met the directrice of my school and was shuffled to my room, attached to an apartment building ten feet from the schoolyard. I was told it’d be temporary and I’d be moving into a bigger place in November.

As I entered my new living quarters for the final days of September and October, I felt very tired. Even though the bed didn’t have any sheets or pillows and sported a prison-like steel bar from underneath, I wanted to dive into it and fall into a deep slumber. The kitchen is two feet away from my bed. The toilet is one foot away from my refrigerator. The shower is inches away from where I lay my head to rest on a pillow. Water from a shower I took crept under my bed last night. There is a window, but the shutters won’t open, so it’s pitch black during the day. I can’t see outside which makes me slightly anxious.

The husband looked at me with an expression that matched my own apprehensive one and said, “isn’t it a little sad? It’s dark outside, you’re alone, and in a new place.” I still don’t know why people need to emphasize the negatives while in situations like these. At least he wouldn’t let me carry my luggage and helped me practice using my keys. All around me, French flew in the air and finally the husband said, “she needs to sleep.” They left, but I needed to unpack and so didn’t go to sleep until midnight.

The positives? The directrice showed me the school the next morning, told me I could use as much paper as I wanted, and showed me my large classroom with all the materials I could ever need. She spoke a lot, made me feel comfortable, and I could understand most of what she said. After seeing my “emploi du temps” or timetable, I was shocked. French children don’t go to school on Wednesday and because of Monsieur Sarkozy, they now have Saturdays off too. Even stranger, I teach on only two of the four days of school per week. Tuesdays and Thursdays. Comment?????? Before I could say that there was some mistake, the directrice asked me if I was interested in taking French classes in Lyon at a university there on my days off. Suddenly bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, I quipped, bien sûr!

From the school, we went to Géant, one of France’s hypermarkets. Slightly overwhelmed with the mustard and cheese aisles, the directrice helped me so much that I couldn’t believe how full the cart was with food for my little kitchen. She assumed things that I needed or things I might like and we threw them in the cart as though I was a regular there.
After the supermarket, I ate lunch and headed out into the town for a little walk. It was nice to finally be alone and walking after three days of being surrounded by hundreds of people and my luggage. I found the train station, the post office, a cemetery, and the Rhône River on foot. Brick houses with shutters, sometimes, bright purple created a distinct French feel throughout the town. I got the goose bumps while crossing the highway, seeing signs for Strasbourg, Lyon, Paris, Marseille. I’m in France and happy to be here.

9/28/08 - Dimanche

It’s hard not having the Internet. I keep wanting to check my email. All I can do is listen to music, look at pictures, watch DVD’s, or write, so I’ve decided to keep a journal on what happens each day here. Then I can post them in my blog later.

I slept in until about noon today. Part of me doesn’t want to get out of bed, because my living space feels filthy and I don’t want to live in it. Another part asks, “what am I going to do when I get up besides shower with the shower head that sprays water in all directions tres fort, so much so that it can actually scratch my back with its power?”

Did some Pimsleur and am waiting for Sylvie to get me. Apparently, we’re going to the mountains today for some kind of outing. What it is exactly, je ne sais pas. Who is going to be there? Je ne sais non plus. I’m a little nervous, but I need to put myself out there. I’d be angrier with myself for not trying to speak French and holing up in my hole of a room. Bring it on.


The mountain excursion wasn’t really an excursion, but more of an “escort” to a mountain center where the 5 and 6 year old kids would stay for a week. Almost all of them cried while the bus pulled away. They made the appropriate animal sounds when we passed them and I got a kick out of hearing “coco-ri-co” when we went by chickens. I had my first “Kir” from the bartender at the center and a great dinner of lasagna, salad composee, cheese plate (of course) and ice cream. The best part was talking to Sylvie the entire way home (2 hours) in French. She’s been so great and helpful and she understands my situation, as she too learned English in the U.S.

9/29/08 – Lundi

Met the other teachers at my school today. Seem nice, but some are hesitant to talk with me. Went on the Internet and got a tea/coffee kettle thing. Went back to Geant to get slippers, sticky tack for class, shampoo, and tissues. Started planning where I want to go for All Saint’s Holiday. Belgium? Germany?

9/30/08 – Mardi

Spent virtually the whole day with Corrine in both Chasse and Vienne dealing with paperwork/etc. She seemed concerned with Chasse. The teachers, she said, don’t seem very nice and/or willing to speak English. (which is fine with me BTW…the less English, the better). It was cool to practice speaking with her in French, but by the end of the day I was exhausted.

Some observations:

French bread is hurting my mouth. It’s ripping up the roof of my mouth and it’s a little worse each day.

I shouldn’t buy a whole slice of Brie. It’s going to put on extra pounds and I can’t eat it all before the expiration date.

The slippers and actual shower gel (non hotel kind) have made my day.

The Office has also been a savior.

10/01/08 – Mercredi – Dad’s Birthday!

Tried to get a bank account today at the post office of all places. Everything seemed to be going well until Sylvie and me received word that I can’t get one after all, because I’m not a citizen of the European Union. From there, we went to Geant where we set up an appointment with another bank for tomorrow. This all seems a bit too much. I keep telling myself that I have to make this year worth it.

I have been extremely tired (only in phases though) throughout the day and had to collapse into prime napping form at about 3pm. Sylvie talks so loud and so much that it’s kind of an effort for me to respond sometimes. She’s been the most helpful person to me here by far, so I guess that’s a small price to pay. As I was getting out of the car, she asked if I was going to come to the school tomorrow. I said, yes, imagining that’s what she would want to hear. She responded with, “good…last year the assistant didn’t come out of her classroom, never smiled, and didn’t say a word to anyone. That’s why her French didn’t progress at all.” On that hint, I think I’ll be putting on my friendly face tomorrow and trying to make friends with my colleagues.

Today, Sylvie told me that it’s obligatory for everyone in France to put those bright yellow safety vests on the seat of their car. She said it’s even more enforced in Spain. I always wondered why people put them on the seats of their car.

Trucs to note:

I now have an address 118 rue Jean Moulin and a boite de lettres.
And a fresh jar of Nutella.
Went for a short walk until I was too tired and too hot to go on. The scenery is beautiful here. There are vineyards, gardens, and stone houses with bright violet shutters.
My eyes teared up a little bit when I looked at the U.S. section of the International aisle and there was peanut butter, oreos, Pepperidge farm cookies, and marshmallows. Weird. I’ve only been here a week.

10/2 – 10/8

I’ve finally gotten my first day of teaching over with and feel better about having worked at least one day in the past three months. Time off is so much better when you’ve worked for it…that’s sure.

So, I’ve been to Grenoble this past weekend and had a great time with Lindsey, Leslie, Liza, Allison, Gearoid, Paul, AJ, and Rory. There were tons of people there, and we all intermingled at London Pub Sat. night. We went up in the Telepherique, or balls, walked around, had some kir and fromage blanc in a café, had kebabs, walked around, and went out.

Teaching was kind of uneventful. I woke up and didn’t feel the slightest bit nervous. I just wanted to be prepared because everyone’s been so helpful. Some of the kids were too noisy, but I tried to take care of that by establishing the sticker system right away. And then taking away their stickers. It seemed to work better with the younger kids. I’ve got a full day ahead of me tomorrow. We’ve just been doing name tags, English names, faces, and “What’s your name?” dialogues.

I was proud of my morning errand running today. I got up, took out the trash, went to the post office, then to the library (where everyone is incredibly nice) to get a card and some books. I got “A Year in Provence” by Peter Mayle and a book on Lyon and the countryside around it. I was going to go for a run as well, but it’s been raining since I got up this morning. And it’s coming down harder now.


Vendredi October 24, 2008

Long time no freaking write. I’ve not been in the greatest mind set to write lately. I’m a little frustrated with my living conditions and life in Chasse in general. I kind of expected people to be a bit more hospitable, but that really hasn’t been the case. I’m trying to be friendly, but it’s hard when I’m so not confident with my French.

On my walk a la poste, puis la gare, I noticed that people were cleaning the tombstones in the cemetery with mops and buckets. I mean, really scrubbing. For most European countries, the Fall Holiday encompasses visiting lost loved ones, lighting candles by their tombstones and remembering. Will be in Belgium over “Toussaint.” And Leslie and I are going to Chambery tomorrow to visit G and AJ.

Cemetery in Chasse

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

I'm still alive

My poor blog has not seen much action, which is sad now that I'm actually in France and have French things to write about.

The problem is my Internet connection, and lack of one.

Things are however, looking up. I'm getting internet installed in my brand spanking new pad in Chasse, so posts will be flying in from all angles....eventually.

Merci for your patience!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

The Learning of Languages

On a walk today, I got to thinking about languages. I was listening to French music on my iPod and with less than a week until I leave for France, I realized how awful my French is for having earned a college degree in the study of it. I can barely speak it, yet I have a certificate of Oral French Proficiency from my university professors. How is this possible? In my defense, it has been about five years since I've studied it, but even five years ago, I'm not sure I could've held my own in an ordinary conversation.

Thanks to a friend in Spain, I've got a language speaking program for my computer that focuses less on grammar and spelling, but emphasizes speaking in "language chunks." I've been dutifully sitting down to speak with my "computer" for about two hours a day trying to better my pronunciation and recall old phrases and basic expressions that have scarily escaped me.

This makes me think about my French classes from both high school and college. Yes, we did speak, but with rote phrases never used in context like, "J'aime voyager" or "je n'aime pas travailler." They gradually became more difficult as classes progressed, but I never felt comfortable when speaking. In college, we read, analyzed poetry before feeling anywhere close to fluent. There were never any conversational exercises, just reading passages and questions. In class we simply read what we had written as an answer for homework when the teacher asked us the questions.

There was a huge gap in my language learning. Sometimes I think I would've been much more interested in reading French poetry and novels had I a verbal command of the language. I could kind of read it, but barely had a chance to discuss it.

The best French lesson I ever had was during 12th grade of Madame Thorsen's class. She supplied food: chocolate sandwiches and pop (not entirely French, but satisfactory for high school students). We put our desks into a square of four, so it transformed into a dinner table instead of the usual droll rows and columns. Then, for the next thirty minutes, we were to eat and socialize in French only. We made mistakes, asked questions, but the more we spoke, the more I got into it. So much so, that when I left class, I was thinking in French. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before. That day, I had loved French class.

I think language teachers need to break up the lessons in the book with some fun conversational activities every once and a while, even with beginners. Students need variety and a chance to use the language. What good is knowing a language when you can't speak it?
One easy way is to act out situations using key phrases learned from previous lessons. When acting out dialogues in pairs or groups, students shouldn't read off of cards, but just submit themselves to making mistakes and becoming familiar with hearing the words come from their mouths.

As for me, it's high time I finally learned how to speak French properly after all those years of studying.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Lance Back in France

He's coming out of retirement, pulling a Brett Favre. Lance Armstrong is looking to race in 2009's Tour de France beginning in Monaco next July.

I'm not sure how I feel about this. He did get me interested in the sport after all, but I have a weakness for underdogs and I truly enjoyed watching 2008's almost dope-less race. It was nice to see different stage wins, no-names get their claim to fame and their lion. In other words, not one person dominated the entire Tour and we were kept in suspense until the near end.

However, on that note, it would be interesting to see if Lance can pull himself together and compete against all these young hopefuls.

À toute à l’heure Lance...

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Headlines

Whatever John McCain's reason for choosing Sarah Palin as his vice presidential pick, the subtle difference in two international headlines got me thinking...

In France's Le Monde, the headline read, "McCain choisit une femme pour la vice-présidence." In other words, "McCain chooses a woman for vice-presidency."

In the New York Times I saw, "McCain Chooses Palin as Running Mate." Variations of this were similar in other U.S. newspaper headlines.

I don't think the majority of people knew who Sarah Palin was before McCain made her famous and it may be safe to say that "woman" was the first thing that came to the minds of many when they heard the news.

It seems very typically U.S. to be as politically correct with headlines, in this case, omitting any hint to Palin's femaleness. On the other hand, France's headline has nothing to hide. In regards to our first thoughts on McCain's decision, is the headline chauvanistic or simply blatant and honest?

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Just to be clear...

...I'm not anywhere close to being French, nor do I really want to be. Even as a somewhat closeted francophile, I will not take on the impossible task of trying to be someone I'm not. As the blog, states, I'm not quite there. Now, days after it's begun, "not quite there" brings to mind a turtle slothing it's way to a non-existent finish line. The name comes solely from my lack of originality and my tendency to twist around the names of books I've recently read to title my blogs.

The book in question is Sarah Turnbull's "Almost French," of which I highly recommend to anyone. Upon picking it up at the library and glimpsing the cover, I thought that the pages would contain a fictional romance on the streets of Paris, couples lounging in candlelit cafes, then later slothing down magnificent cobblestone alleys like the aforementioned turtle. While thinking the book would be much better if the couple happened to step in a grotesque pile of dog shit, I happened upon the summary. Critics had written exactly my thoughts. I took it home and there wasn't an ounce of sap in the entire book. A non-fiction piece, it gives the reader a glimpse of Paris from a foreigner's eyes. The humiliating moments everyone stuggles with in another country, and the minor successes that become huge. It's humorous, well written, and informative.

Maybe this blog is my way of being a wannabe after all. Other than the fact that I like to write, my two other blogs, Hungarian Lessons, and Spanish from Scratch, functioned well in a few ways.

* HL was a great way to complain about the horrid students I taught in Budapest and have random Hungarians write comments like, "why don't you try smiling at them? You sound very angry."

* Writing on SFS helped me block out all the excess noise in the teacher's room, not to mention the incessant drama that incessantly occured there.

* Both blogs kept my parents aware that I was still alive as I can't seem to get over this telephone "allergy" of mine. Saying that I HATE talking on the phone is an understatement. I think I'm actually scared that it will bite me.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Adventure Looms

I spent the past weekend with two of my closest friends, one of whom drove more than 4 hours north to Chicago from St. Louis. These are the kind of friends that will always be there *sigh.* We ate Japanese food, ice cream, and gummi bears. We trolled the aisles of Super Target giggling, some of us snorting. We sprayed perfume in each other's faces...by accident. We went out and danced. We stayed up until 4 in the morning chatting, munching on Triscuits and cream cheese. We took pictures...hundreds of them. We only stopped laughing to eat.

The high from this kind of weekend left me wanting to stick around longer. Make the summer drag out a bit more. Stretch the days, even though they are getting consistently shorter each day. Instead of traversing the continent of Europe, I increasingly find myself wanting to stop wandering and be around those with whom I'm closest.

Going to France is hugely important to me. I've studied French, it's culture, and history for 9 years and as much as I've wanted to give up and slam my phonebook size dictionary shut, it's always haunted me. And I've always stuck with it. I love the sound of French, the people and culture intrigue me. I intend to get the most out of my time there. And I'm secretly hoping the Gallic air will clear my head and I'll be able to figure out what I'm going to do with myself next.

Although I'm excited to get to France, it's always sad to say goodbye to family and friends. While some wonder why I continue to bounce from one place to the next, others think it's great and want to visit. No matter what anyone thinks, everyone's still supported me. Sometimes, I think of my time teaching abroad as a second college experience. This means I'm coming up on senior year and ready to graduate soon.